i'm having a really sad day.
loneliness is sort of inescapable in a city where no one actually knows you. i miss being around people that i'm completely comfortable with. i take too long to open up. i cried to myself while i walked through the park with hunter this morning. i felt a bit better afterward. but now, if i let my mind wander, i cant hold them back. the worst part is not being able to call anybody because of the time difference. the only person that would be awake is my brother but my phone won't let me call japan. hopefully i feel better soon; writing this actually just made it worse so i'm going to click publish post now.